出了什麽問題?

說真的、我真的感覺到我倆除了問題、
最近、我倆吵架的次數也來越多了...
可能是因為你最近比較忙吧...

怎麼辦、我好害怕...
我害怕你畢業以後、我們怎麼辦?
以後不能天天見面、
我倆的感情會不會就此變淡了?

我不知道我們到底怎麼了...
意見不合了...
我感覺我為你做的、不被你珍惜了...
我也感覺到...我開始不尊重你了...
我到底該怎麼辦...
到底哪裡出了問題........

我的身體...一天比一天不能熬、
我也不知道怎麼了...只覺得天天都好累哦...
最近頭不聽話、胃也不聽話了...
好想一直陪著你、但我好累...對不起噢親愛的...

好想能天天跟你在一起、
像以前一樣...天天一起聊天、
一起聊心事、一起玩、一開笑...

再過一個月、我們就不能天天像現在這樣了...
我真的好害怕不能天天聽到你的聲音、
不能天天粘著你了...

對不起、我還是很任性、
生氣時一直對你說氣話、
一定讓你難受了吧...

不知怎麼、感覺心好酸哦...
希望你可以成功畢業、
一定要加油...做東西不要留到最後一分鐘...
不要像現在一樣喜歡喜歡就熬夜了...
不要那麼執著于一些事...
如果沒時間、就不要打球了...
一直這樣把自己累壞...

雖然我不知道我們以後會變成怎麼樣...
有難題我們一起分擔...
我們之間如果真的出了問題、
我們一起面對好嗎?

在我的世界里、
你就像空氣、
在不知不覺中、
你變成了我不可或缺的東西、
任何事、都想以你為中心、
你也像一本日記、
記載著我們之間的快樂與悲傷、
讓我留下了許多回憶、
當我們一起翻閱這些回憶時、
我真的感覺到、幸福 :)

希望這份幸福...你也能感覺到...希望我們能把這份幸福...一直...延續下去

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謝謝你愛我

說真的、我很感謝你對我的轉變、
雖然我還是非常的不習慣你對女朋友的方式、
不管你的轉變是不是因為我、
還是要謝謝你 :)

我知道我很自私、
一直要你依照我的方式來生活、
我也知道你的異性緣很好、
我不否認我的異性緣很好、
不過、你知道爲什麽你不會很不放心么?
因為我適可而止、
有了另一半、適當的問候、偶爾分享心事就好 :)

主動久了會累、
付出久了會累、
吵架久了會累、
哭久了、也會累、
我想你知道、我一直不喜歡主動、
不過這幾個月、都是我自己主動牽你的手、
其實我很不喜歡這樣的感覺、不知道爲什麽、
我一直很努力的、習慣你對我的方式、
信息時、跟男友、通常都是" morning, dear :D、okay dear:)、i miss you baby :( "之類的、
不過我已經習慣了你的"k" 、甚至是沒回覆、
我們吵架已經不是一兩天的事了、
不過近來好了很多^^ 謝謝你 :)

想起之前、我不確定你愛不我愛、
我多麼的傷心都好、
直到現在我還是堅持留在你身邊、
希望都是值得的吧 :)
因為、換來了你的一句 【我愛你】

生日當天、10,11,12
多麼希望你會記得、
多麼希望得到你衷心的祝福、
讓我失望的是、你不記得、
雖然我早就預料到了、
不過、12點鐘時、淚水在眼睛裡打轉的我、
還是期待著...
當天晚上11.50分、我堅持要你陪我、
我堅持要待在你的身邊、
本來、我不想告訴你是我生日、
不過最後我還是說了、
你的反應不讓我意外、
你緊緊地抱著我、對我說生日快樂、
我很開心、也很傷心、
這種心情的交錯、我的淚、又不聽話的流下來、
因為那是我最想得到的祝福、就四個字而已、
不過、是我提醒你說的...所以、我淚了、
無論如何、還是要謝謝你、
謝謝你陪我度過那大半天 :')

愛、是互相信任、
對不起、我很不信任你、
因為、我在不久前才感覺到你的愛而已、
我對我自己沒信心、
你說你知道、沒有一個女生喜歡自己的男友提起前女友、
你沒有別的意思、
不過、兩年多前的事、
你記得那麼清楚、
還有你喜歡的歌"陶喆-Melody、記得" 等等、
已經說明了你的心裡不是完全沒有她、
只是、她被藏在你的心底而已、
我瞭解、她的離開、對你有很大的影響、
我只想說、我不希望我是你的避風港、不是一個代替品、
我願意陪著你、不過、如果我發現你的心裡還有她、
我會狠心的一走了之、不會再回頭、
無論、我有多愛你、
因為、這兩種、都會讓我心痛、
只是、我想對自己好一點而已、

當下、
謝謝你對我的關心、
每一次、你顧慮我的感受時、
我是多麼的開心、
謝謝你、謝謝你愛我、:)

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results

It's too hard for me to describe that,
how disappointed am i to myself,
I'm feeling so sorry to my parents :(
Haihx,
why am I so stupid?
why am I just too lazy to put more effort on studies?

:(

dear, I need your hug :(
how much I wish that you're just right beside me right now :(
dear, thank you for comforting me.
I know that you're tired,
sorry I really wish to talk to you :(
but I don't wish to mess up your study plan.
all the best my dear.

:(

dad, mum,
sorry for obtaining such results :(
I'm not planning to tell.
I felt scared,
I don't wish to see disappointed expression on your face :(
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry that I'm not a good sister,
I couldn't be a good example for brother.
I'm feeling unfilial. :(

sorry :(

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the only one

alright i admit that I like to think too much,
why such things happened?
why that girl's photo still on your mobile phone?

last two days,
it's the first time you tell me that you love me,
I'm really appreciate, really very happy.

yesterday, i mean like few hours ago,
I'm at your place before I went back.

I'm very happy to see you,
I'm really sad that I can't see you for this few days.
when you went for bathe,
all of sudden I feel like checking ur phone,
like last time I did,
I just wanna know, the girl that I saw last time,
izzit she's still there.

You seriously made me felt disappointed,
her picture,
her beauty,
it's still there.

Don't you think that I just suddenly went emo just now?
I do wish to trust you,
but why don't you let me do so?!
I feel like crying,
but I swallow my tears back.

I scare.
I knew that you don't like me to check your phone.
I scare that you'll give me the respond that you gave me last time,
last time when I just be honest that i tell you after i check your phone.
do you still remember it?

I'm coward,
now I know that you love me,
I scare that, when I ask you about this,
you'll scold me,
or, you'll tell me that you still can't forgot her.
I DON'T WANNA HEAR THAT!!!
just stay with me.....:(

sorry for keeping this inside,
sorry that I'm not brave enough to face it.

I love you,
only you.
am I the only one too?

I wish so.

I love your hug, my boy.

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appreciate

one of my good friend, he miss his mom,
she's already be a guardian of him in heaven.
when i heard this,
seriously i tried my best to comfort him.
but it's too hard.
i cant imagine if any of my family member leave me.
zhun you, actually you're strong enough.

after there's so many things happen in my life,
human come and go.
i still remember that time when im in secondary school,
suddenly there's some ppl came into my class and wants to collect some fund,
because my friend just passed away.
i got shock, until i cant really express any of my feelings.
im just like be freeze and my fingers was like cold until hardly move.
He's a friend that i know him since year 4.
he's really a good person, a helpful person,
always put a smile on lips.

yea of course, sometimes will still miss him,
because it happened years ago.

i really have to appreciate the existence of everyone around me,
family, my dearest one, and of course all my friends.

im just too lucky and have too much of happiness in my life,
i am blessed.

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a lil update :))

it have been months since my latest update.
there's a great change to my life,

now, im studying in utar, which is located in kampar, perak.
since im young, i've never stay away from my parents for more than 4 days.
but now, im staying at hostel.
of course, i felt lost, felt scare, felt that i've nobody to rely on.

fortunately, you are here.
im really glad that i know you.
but borrow me your shoulder when i need.
you comfort me when i cry, when i miss my family and my friends.
i really appreciate the existence.
thank you. :))

you made me laugh like nobody else.
you told me those crazy things you did.

in my new school life, i made new friends.
of course, sometimes there will be some dissatisfied within each other.
hope that you guys wont end this sem with this kind of relationship now :(
it's just a small deal, everyone had their own emotion.
hope that everything will be alright,
and we will stick together in next sem too! :DD

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1 more subject to go

spm 還有一科!!!!
我最親愛的華語 /.\

考完我就畢業了魯~~~~~~
哇咔咔、
好啦、現在來向大家做個小小報告 :D

26/11/2011
我跟朋友去看電影 :P

那電影是、、
那些年, 我們一起追得女孩
我超愛看的 :x
雖然是有一些18禁 /.\ [我的確是17歲沒錯 =.=]

這部電影里、
我看到了對愛的執著、
愛的遺憾、

報告完畢! 謝謝 xDD

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genting :D

27 - 29 october,
我去了雲頂 xD
跟家人去噠、
好無聊 >///<

拍了照照、
大家來看看唄、
給些評論喲 :D

 燕窩蛋撻! 愛死了 >///<

 ^^v

mami + lui lui xD 

 mami + lui lui xD 

mami + lui lui xD 

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here come some small report

hmmm,
nowadays i got ntg to update,
sorry to my dear blogger friends :))

spm left 25 days,
i think i should put more effort on it,
ryte? :)

i started play mytalks,
it's just like chinese facebook,
for me, it's very nice :)

members there were enthusiasm and nice :DD
love them :)


small report here :D

next monday:
- sunway pyramid

next thursday to saturday
- genting highland


to my friends:
enjoy ur holiday ya! ^^

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logos hope

today i visited a ship called logos hope
it's a huge ship.
i bought a book from there :)
had a nice day.

but,
evening,
i met someone,
he he told me things,
i really felt so emo.

haihx,
i just wanna concentrate on my studies :(

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to my mangkuk friend

you you you har,
you dare to lie to me >〃<
seriously i really angry you de,
since you're not in a mood so i forgive you /.\

jiayou lar you :)
anything just find me,
i'll be there for you :)
since you're always be there for me too :)

1 more thing is,
treat girl must be patient and gentle,
and she's still small,
many things you need to let her learn slowly :D

k lar jiayou in study :)

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sungei wang

sunday, 9/10/11
i went to sungei wang with winsey's family xDD

hav a nice day :)
bought a hello kitty shirt xD
and some cosmetic thingy xD

photos will be upload when i get it from winsey :D

i met a friend too :)
awwww you're so tall /.\
nice height :)
i like tall guy LoL :P
haha xD

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friend and studies

i would like to send my appreciation to my friend.
that always beside me when i need.
thank you so much.
i'm so glad to have friend like you :)

to someone,
i got a secret that i not yet tell you :P
i need to keep it myself,
maybe i would tell you, maybe :)

.....skip.....

nowadays i need to concentrate on study
spm's near,
i need to ready for the challenge.

so, i would like to inform that

my blog will be update more often after spm

for sure i'll still update it when i'm free.
no worries :)

thx to ppl that always visit my blog :)
hehe :)

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讀書讀書

我呢,
平時雖然懶惰讀書,
但, 爲了自己的未來 >〃< 
我還是開始讀書了 :)

这次的 spm trial 成績雖然還沒完全知道,
但, 我對我自己的成績,
還蠻失望的 :(
我啊, 就是敗給了自己的懶惰 >〃<

最近,
我爲了好多事,
很容易就睡不著 :(

唉,
好想做回以前那個開開心心,
無憂無慮的我 :(

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好好的過自己的生活

這篇,
是要寫給你的.
我相信你知道.

你問我爲什麽不再回你的信息,
聽你的電話?
你一直跟我道歉,
叫我不要不理你.

但是,
我只能說,
我答應了我自己,
要讓自己開心,
過自己想過的生活.

我不再屬於你,
也不再出現在你的生活里.
慢慢的把我忘了吧.

或許你會恨我，
我不怪你,
因為這是我的決定,
我已經下了很大的決心.

我很信任你,
但我知道,
在你心裡,
你對我,
沒有安全感,
甚至沒有充足的信任.

我知道你很愛我,
你告訴我你會改,
我要的不是這個,
而且, 就算你要改,
你不覺得一切都太遲了嗎?

每次我遇到這些事情,
我一定會心軟,
但, 這次我學會了疼惜我自己.

要學會愛自己,
才有資格愛別人,
不是嗎?

我們之間缺乏的,
不只是溝通,
不只是信任,
也缺乏了瞭解.

現在的我,
想過自己的生活,
把自己關在書的世界里.

現在的我,
需要的只是朋友,
一個會靜靜的聽我傾訴的朋友.

我不希望你改變什麽,
你應該做回你自己.
在未來的日子里,
你會找到比我更懂得體諒你,遷就你的脾氣的人.

也許你會覺得我狠心,
但你以為我很好受嗎?
我最怕拒絕人,
最怕傷害人.
但如果我不這樣,
我怕你會越陷越深.

可能你不知道死心的滋味吧.
對你, 我有太多的失望,
我對你的心已經死了,
就算我把我們的回憶都拿出來看,
我也沒心痛感覺了.

也許, 以後你會瞭解的.
也許, 你會習慣沒有我的生活.

讓時間沖淡一切,
讓我們過各自想要的生活.

愛一個人, 並不是要他/她改變自己,
也不是要爲了他/她改變自己,
而是要自己接受真實的他/她.

請原諒我的自私.
請原諒我不能和你繼續走下去.
我現在唯一希望的,
是你好好的活下去,
過自己想過的生活.

這是我的最後一個要求,
不要再讓我失望了.

謝謝, 你的愛.

羅憶詩 - 來不及

希望,
若以後我們有機會見面,
我可以看到你燦爛的笑容 :)

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tiring

幾天沒更新了,
希望寶貝們別見怪噢.
最近真的是好累哇,
我一直都要做豬豬才有精神喲 >〃<

最近我開始有讀書的專注力了,
不會一直對著電腦了,
其實也算是好事吧?

spm也越來越近了,
我這次的trial成績雖然還沒拿完,
但到現在為止,
成績都不錯喲!
各位寶貝們也要加油哦! :)

下星期就是pmr了,
我弟弟是考生之一,
我盡力為他補習  >〃<
但他的成績也不錯吶 :)

祝pmr的考生們: 加油加油! 要捧多多A回家孝敬父母噢 :) ♥

為考生們送上一首歌曲 ♥

林俊傑 - 加油

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dear ivory

dear ivory,
today is ur big big day :)
we not really celebrate it,
but at least our girls all meet up and accompany you for this day ^^

for me,
you're just like a small girl,
you need to be protect anytime and everytime.

you love to cry xD
like a small baby.

i gifted you a small present,
and a kiss xD
hope you'll really like it,
although it's not a big present.

i had a great day with you and girls,
hope that you can score well in spm,
and be happy everyday :)

with love: me, ah san, hui teng, win sey and kah wai ♥
we'll always love you :)
have a blast :)

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trial's over!

today is the last day of trial!
it's physics.
although trial is over,
but i didn't feel any happiness.

i need to put more effort on it,
but today for sure i'll relax a bit :)

actually single is not a bad thing.
i felt i'd more freedom.
but the bad thing is,
i need comfort :(

梁靜茹 - 暖暖

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愛

你的愛我看到了,
但,這就是你對待你喜歡的人的方式?

你要她活在愧疚里,
每天都不開心嗎?

愛,不是要得到,
而是要祝福.

f.i.r - 我們的愛

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tears

tears just cant stop yesterday,
i dont know why,
i'm so sad of that.

today,
when i woke up,
the first thing i felt is TIRED.
the thing that tired is not my mind or body,
it's my eyes.

i knew that it's is cause of i tear too much yesterday.
but i just cant control.

maybe,
i looked like a person that very strong
and not easily to tear.
but sad to say that,
i'm not.
i tear easily.
but not in front of friends.
i'll just tear infront of certain person.

infront of friends,
i'm always a happy girl.
always smile, talk, share.
but who noes when i'm alone?

i'll tell him when i'm sad,
it's for sure :)
the him,
it's not my boyfriend,
he's my best friend :)

when i'm sad,
actually wad i need is not alone,
it's just somebody to accompany me.
maybe just keep quiet and sit beside me,
or lend me a shoulder is good enough.

i'm NOT a emo girl :D
i'm having a quite positive thinking :)

其實我知道,
我是幸福的.

蘇打綠 - 幸福額度

蘇打綠,
我很喜歡這個團體 :)
主唱, 青峰的聲線是超棒的　:D

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